the classy things having roommates forces you to do when you just want to makeout with someone…
I’ve sort of been with this absolutely gorgeous and freakishly tall TWIN of the lead singer of one my favorite bands, Hellogoodbye Aka Forest Kline
I have no idea how this started happening, but I am 110% okay with it. Plus foresttwin is a stunningly fluid piano player and a very good electronic composer so bonus.
for those who don’t know this is Forest:

also I have every song this band has every recorded. their album “Would it Kill You?” is the most played album on my itunes.
this sounds so creepy but I literally made the connection after we started hanging. I didn’t go try to find a stand in or something.
wut
-getting a cold
-trying to drop choir because its during optimal study time
-trying to understand/memorize my Classical Greek. what is this shit?
-rationalizing not going out this weekend even though i really want to. ill see how im feeling.
-wondering if i am just terrible at social queues or if i keep getting cock blocked by myself/others or if i just set my sights for the unattainable or what help please
-trying not to die
no class tomorrow
im going into the city to get slightly tipsy
and embarrass myself as i try to find a cute boy who will let me put my lips on his face
also here is our moose jeffery
I have an hour before my last class
I look and feel like I haven’t slept for days or that someone has punched me in the face
I lightened my ends even more but my hair still hasn’t turned out the way I want it to
I am being killed by my Ancient Greek language class.
I am realizing archaeology is going to take a lot of science… and that there are no jobs for it anyway
at least my voice is back
and today in ball room I learned the foxtrot
okay my college is super beautiful during the day
but creep as shit at night and supposedly haunted
we just watched The Wicker Man
I am never sleeping again
I am gone from the 22nd-28th on my orientation wilderness trip, hiking and kayaking Lake Waldo in OR.
Then on the 29th, I move into my dorm!! Classes start the following week.
I’ve got a que going, but feel free to leave me messages for when I get back!
love you all.
wish me luck.
efff.
feeling a suffocating depression right now
everything is happening at once
and i can’t stop it
i feel like such a whiner
and also i miss N so much
he is gone
he is really gone.
I dont know what else to do but curl up in this empty bed and cry
big wrenching sobs
until my best friend gets here and we pack me for school
this hurts so fucking much
so fucking much.
I can’t breathe.
Every thing feels like its spinning.
I was falling in love with him.
but we knew it wasn’t going to work out.